Been so reluctant to post lately . Been talking to someone about how I'm feeling lately . People never really see the true you when they are around you . You put up a false front like you're alright but technically you really aren't .

You can hardly catch your breath you simply feel like letting yourself go . You really want to stand up and be there for people that are suffering the same thing as you are but you really don't have the energy to get yourself off the ground . You're tired , you just wanna close your eyes and never open it again .. This isn't what we wanna feel .

We wanna laugh from our hearts , but we have seem to lost that laughter in us . 'i'm alrights.' are those words really true ? Am I really alrights like I claim I am ? I've been hiding my true emotions for so long and I'm submerged in a lie ..

If I had a wish . I'll never wish for you to never enter my life but to cherish you instead of taking you for granted . I would have never let you be the way you are now .. You're not a person like that I believe so .

My fairytale is over . We've gotta move on no matter how reluctant you are to do so . It's not like we have a choice , we just have to get a grip and know that there's someone better that wants you for the way you are . You have to go through so much pain to realise all these . It's an experience , a really worthwhile one .

Time to get a move on . I fell off a cliff so high & I have to depend on myself to get over it and keep on climbing .

It's a new year . Even if it's sucks , at least you know you've tried . Take a deep breath and get back on my feet . Whatever happened made my parents and friends gave up on me . It's time to get up on my own . Cheryl , you've got that one last shot to turn your life around .

With Love , Cheryl O.